My name is Carly. That is my real name, and I post it with real pictures of myself because I don’t care to be anonymous. I have Bipolar II Disorder and that is the main focus of this blog. It mostly manifests as angry bipolar depression. I am very rarely hypomanic, but I do think I have mixed episodes at times. My biggest struggle is with doing things, doing anything. Also criticizing myself.
I am married to my awesome wife Nicole, who supports me in everything except my disdain of housework. I think she thinks that is my worst quality, which all things considered, is a very good thing. We live in Missouri.
I recently quit my ‘normal’ job to work from home as a reseller. I sell online on Etsy, Amazon and Ebay. It is simultaneously easier and much harder than my call center job was. It can be more stressful, but easier to manage because I have a lot more control over that stress. I also teach at the university as per course faculty, which starts back up in a few weeks. I’ll be teaching a course on Electronic Music, which I’ve taught once in the past and I’m pretty excited but also anxious to do it again.
I have a ton of hobbies that I start and stop and start again, maybe some of you can relate. When I am on the wagon, so to speak, I like crocheting amigurumi, drawing people with cartoon animal heads, reading young adult fiction, photography, crossword puzzles and folding paper cranes. Lately though my only hobby has been watching a lot of Netflix. We don’t have cable at my house and I don’t miss it at all. We do have a garden that I don’t tend properly.
I have always blogged for as long as I can remember. Anyone remember Xanga? Does that even exist anymore? When I was in college, all of my friends and I were on there, posting away about our lives and our feelings. Then Facebook became popular and all the blogging stopped. I guess I have always liked the idea of sharing what’s in my head with other people, even as a kid. And now that I’ve been blogging more regularly and reading other people’s blogs who also have bipolar or depression, it really helps me. I don’t feel so broken and alone. So that’s the reason I do this I suppose. The community that other people have built gives me hope and I want to be a part of it.